HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!

Hope everyones upcoming year turns out great.

It's New Years Eve, yay!!!! One more year comes to an end and another one starts. I'm not one to get excited over new years, after all you go to bed and get up in the morning, is there a big magical change that's taken place. No not really, the only thing that changes is you have to remember to write a different date. You know it's not like at mid-night on new year's eve a time line crack(to signify the end of the year) appears in the middle of the floor and if you don't step over it right away you will miss out on the new year.

I am bringing in the new year sitting here by myself, and no I don't say that because I'm feeling bad about it nor do I want any one to feel sorry for me. I had a chance to go up to my sister's house but chose to stay here and get some work done. Sometimes just being by yourself is not a bad thing. So I think I'll get started downloading some things and work on some projects I've wanted to get started on for a while now. If you are partying tonight have fun and be safe. Talk to you next year.

Ok so today was the first day back to work after a week off. A day i wasn't looking forwaed to for sure, but like a friend who I talked to late last night said, after the first couple of hours all will be back to normal. And she was right, I totally survived this day, although none of the micky mouse stuff has changed. Oh well, I will continue to trudge along till it's time to make a change, which I hope will come soon. At least something has changed already, before I would have just accepted this and kept trudging along no matter how much I disliked the situation However I am working on making this change come about, my newest problem now might be patience. haha

And yes, yesterday wasn't very good for me, but it has gotten better. The things racing around in my head have settled down and I can see a little clearer now. I am doing a lot better today and the positive attitude is coming back to me. Oh, they are giving us a break tomorrow we only have to work 8 hours, and we have New Years day off and back at it again on Thursday. That's it for now.

No big post tonight. Today has been a strange walk around in a fog type of day. Don't know guess i've just got a lot on my mind and everything is colliding due to lack of room in my brain. Just like a lot of things running around in different directions and running into each other. It is a strange feeling and one I know will ease up and go away, yet while you have it, it's hard to think and function. Most of the day my nerves have felt streched to the brink. If you were to come up and tap me on the shoulder i'd probably take a trip to the moon, and wouldn't even need a rocket to get there. You could liken it to the way you feel four days after you quit smoking. Well thats all I feel like writting right now. Don't worry this will pass..... I know.
Later

Today was a very lazy day for me. I didn't get a thing accomplished, and I really didn't care. Maybe it is because I know my week off from that crazy rock quarry is almost over. Hard to believe a week has gone by already!! And if you can't tell this is something I am not looking forward to. This job has become something I just drag myself to day after day just so I can get a paycheck at the end of the week. I have become very tired and burnt out doing this work. And the fact it is run like a micky mouse outfit now does not help matters any. When I first started working in the rock business we were a locally owned company. But as of a little over a year ago we were bought out by a large corporation, and thats when it started being run like a micky mouse outfit. Being reduced to just an employee number has been hard to get used to, that and all the extra rules and paperwork. That plus I am not sure how much longer I can work for a company that thinks we should work every daylight hour there is in the day. An example is we are still working 10 hour days even though there is only 9 1/2 hours of daylight in a day. Sure one could argue about the good money I would be making, but there comes a point when you would like to feel you can have a life of your own. It's got to about more then just work, work, work. So I am real close to quitting out there and starting over on something else. That's where the scarry part comes in especially at my age, but I now believe and have the confidance I can do it. And theres only one way to find out and that is to take that first step and then dive in and do it. I guess we shall soon see. That's enough ranting and rambling for now.

I am coming to the conclusion that I must live in the land of the most screwed up weather going. For example yesterday it was cold and snowing, today its sunny and 50. And tomorrow its supposed to in the 60's go figure. I don't know if I should keep my winter coat handy or go out and get some sun tan lotion. I do know one thing and that is these days of rollercoaster temptures sure make it easy for people to get sick.

Got up this morning had to run to the grocery store....always an adventure. This trip was no different. Got in line to check out and of course there is only one register open. From somewhere towards the rear of the line I heard it, I knew I would I was just surprised it took as long as it did. Anyway this lady starts bitching, it's like "is this the only line open I got to go to work in a few minutes, and why don't they open another register." You know it almost makes a person want to turn and say look they run the store not us, so quit bitchin to us,we are in line and waiting just like you are. Besides I thought to myself lady if you knew when you had to work why didn't you give yourself ample time to shop. Thats it for now.

Its been a quiet kinda laid back day. Did some straightening up and putting the house back together after yesterday. Then spent most of the afternoon looking some things up on the internet and doing a lot of reading. Was sitting here earlier watching it snow. It was the first snowfall of the season, it was kind of nice to see. Of course I could say it was nice because i knew it wasn't going to amount to much. It's quit already, and what did fall melted as soon as it hit the ground.

Not sure what tonight holds in store for me, I'll just go along and do whatever pops into my mind to do. I've lost interest in TV, so more then likely whatever I do will involve sitting in front of my computer. Later

The gifts have been opened, the meal is over, the visitor's have packed up, rowdy kids and all and gone back from whence they came. So now I'm sitting here listening to this strange sound fill the air........silence, you know peace and quiet. Yes no more screaming, yelling or running around, all is back to normal...well almost. There is still the uaual clean up to do after the normal family get together. You know I've often wondered why it is you make sure your place is nice and clean before company shows up, when 10 minutes after they are there your place suddenly looks like a disaster area. I think from now on I will just leave the cleaning for after the family get together. All in all I must say the went fairly good. Didn't even reach borderline nervous wreck, like I have on some other get togethers. But still, I am glad it's over. Thats all for now. Hope your holiday turned out well.